Apr 19, 2018

-I still strongly think he deserves the Pulitzer.
-Dude drop it. Kendrick's album is thoughtfully written. His style evolved and his lyrics are filled with substance.
-U saying our boy has no substance.
-I'm saying our boy is a boy. He is a genius in his own right, he is amazing, hey I love the guy. But he is very stuck in his register, it doesn't evolve. He is still, hopefully, working on his issues through his music. But it is still the same kind of mindset, the same kind of problematic and...
-How can you say that K.? How dare you cast a mechanical look on Eminem's emotions? DID YOU EVEN LISTEN to his LAST ALBUM?
-I'm not judging him. Dude if anything it hurts to hear such packed sufferance and anger and resentment in his music. I feel for the guy he is my favorite rapper and his music one of my favorite ones. You saw how much I listen to his shit. It's just that the Pulitzer awa...
-Pulitzer award has become BULLSHIT, BULLSHIT you hear. Much like the Nobel prize. Did you hear of that Myanmar lady?
-Aung San Suu Kyi you mean? Just check the finalists and you will see for yourself the work involved and the brand the Pulitzer hearkens to. Commitment to the social condition and socio-politi...
-Eminem is a MILESTONE. He is THE established One.
-Eminem brought up the issues of his own class briefly and focused on his own therapy through music, which is still ongoing and still looping over the same topics. Kendrick created a grandiose tribute to his generation's of African-American....
-Eminem TRANSCENDED his race and his background. His issues are UNIVERSAL. Goddamn it Khadija, you gave up on your boy? U sidin' with Lamar now?



Oh my fucking time. It's passed 11h00 pm. I want to be done with my thesis report and I regret blasting my Eminem playlist. I don't want to argue over rap, Eminem, Lamar and Pulitzer's winners right now.

Right now, I want to be done with the mesoscopic representatiVe volume element of the beads manufactured with short fibers through fused deposition modeling.

No, but no, instead let's blast DAMN. and try to knock in B.'s head why Lamar's album is what is and why Eminem's music is what is.

Apr 17, 2018

The ache in my heart from such beauty is unbearable. Why is there such a divine hold within a piece and I'm a meek soul trying to intake it all in? Just why?

Apr 16, 2018

Inochi No Namae いのちの名前

The Name of Life.

I don't think Chihiro realized the extent of it and its weight and its consequences and overall, its fractal process, when she was stepping back into the "human world" with her parents. She got a hint  of it and turned, then got a hint of it and looked for few moments at the tunnel. Maybe someday, she will be collecting dry laundry and then it will hit her. Maybe it will never happen. Maybe it will happen in the school, who knows. There is no methodology.

I think Haku was the one to feel the extent of Life at that separation and he kept it to himself, and he shared the hope they would meet again, for he will always be in her heart.

Ultimately, it's this soundtrack that renders the extent of the emotion stuck in that moment, and I think this particular artwork at that particular moment, is the fractal of Life.

It's just there and I look fully inward while listening to it, feeling it in every cell of my body and thinking about old days and coming days in the freshness of a dry summer among the green of the North or the sand of the South. I think of that sweetness of that solitude, the melancholy of it and just like that, I get a speeding ticket.

Apr 9, 2018

A Meditation on Humanizing Mankind

Pictures by J. 
 Dear, you rock all the way to the edge of your stem cells. Happy birthday to you as well and I wish for you all that you wish for.

Happy birthday Senator Fulbright, your gift keeps on giving, your legacy instills all of us with awe and commitment, your ideology has a cancerous behavior with a viral outreach. Long may your memory endure.

"Educational exchange can turn nations into people, contributing as no other form of communication can to the humanizing of international relations. Man's capacity for decent behavior seems to vary directly with his perception of others as individual humans with human motives and feelings, whereas his capacity for barbarism seems related to his perception of an adversary in abstract terms, as the embodiment, that is, of some evil design or ideology." [Speech to the Council on International Educational Exchange, 1983]

 "International educational exchange is the most significant current project designed to continue the process of humanizing mankind to the point, we would hope, that men can learn to live in peace--eventually even to cooperate in constructive activities rather than compete in a mindless contest of mutual destruction....We must try to expand the boundaries of human wisdom, empathy and perception, and there is no way of doing that except through education." [From remarks on the occasion of the thirtieth anniversary of the Fulbright Program, 1976]

This week-end has been fruitful in all kinds of celebrations, food, laughter, and conversations: a versatile meditation over our own passage through the U.S. from rich souls of different perspectives, different majors, different countries, sharing passionate tendencies and commitment overdrive and the audacity to stand by ideas and concepts, live by them and fight for them.

Among the intimate exchanges we shared, the one D. and I were hung on was the human condition: perhaps, it's PhD in philosophy, perhaps it's the sewers of humankind where we delve in, perhaps it's Z. psychological and gender studies, but it was a long meditation over what it meant to be human, and when one answers to such a title: All of us have had our fair share of human interactions in this country and witnessing and living through alienating episodes or humbling ones, and so we were discussing the difference between when a biped is more of a puppet than a social animal, when a social animal is more of a creature of mind than a self-aware life form, when a self-aware life form is more of a bundle of thoughts and emotions than a consciousness able to react, assess and process and grow, and when... and when, and when...

There is no end to it, there is a feel to it though. It will take more writing, so much more writing Senator, so much more coffee, exchange, experiences. It will take more lifetimes. I am grateful nonetheless. There is a lot of personal stake on the Fulbright legacy on an intricate scale and every time, I rediscover it and find out it grew and unraveled some more and it instills in me a terrible and fascinating sense of inner awareness.



Apr 8, 2018

Good-bye Fay, you've been a soothing limbo

I miss these three so so much already. Please guys, keep on shining and pursuing your quests, keep on working for the advancement of yourselves and the species. I wish you never grow old.




I wish we meet again. I will see to it. Let's do it over and over again.